Happily, Dennis came home in one piece; he did not get eaten by a bear, fall out of the boat and drown, get eaten by a huge fish or fall asleep at the wheel. I thank God he's home safely and can now put my thoughts to other things: like the conference.
I gotta tell you, the work and preparation hasn't been going well. I have been having a hard time keeping my chin up.
I am trying to have a positive attitude, or at least a healthy one; I am trying to remember that when things don't go your way, it goes God's way. I'm going to smile until it hurts.
Yesterday was sort of a tough day with highs and lows over the conference; if there has every been a day filled with discouragement, it was yesterday. By the time the day was over, I was seriously thinking of not going. Here is why:
- The hours are still horrible. As we try to figure out who's going to take what shift so that it's not stuck all on one person, it sinks in a little bit more how much time, work and stress this is costing all of us.
- My other helper pulled out sort of last minute, because she's been sick and doesn't think she can handle the hours.
- Which means that my other helper--my other brother Andy, is also pulling out because he's legally blind and can't drive the freeway. (Legally blind with driving, I should say.)
- My other brother, who committed himself to helping from the beginning, is wearing out already and the conference hasn't even started yet.
- I'm finding out that I will either be doing the late night shifts by myself or else I will have to close down early.
- I also found out that the "in-between" times of selling (which lasts between 1 hour to 3 hours or even 5 hours) are going to be just walking the halls, reading books or praying the rosary because vendors aren't allowed in the actual conference. My brother told me that he's going to be going home during those hours. :-(
- My oldest brother, Jerry, (I have 3 brothers in case you're wondering where it's going to end!) was trying to be helpful but instead was very discouraging; stating that I probably won't sell very much because I don't have a credit card scanner and most teenagers will be walking around with debit and credit cards--which is true.
- He did state that I might be able to sell 4 rosaries and break even. Oh, good.
But the good news is that this is not my work; it belongs to God and I work for Him. When I think of why I'm doing this in the first place, why the youth is there at the conference, and why the conference is happening for the youth, I feel my heart lifting again, because it isn't about sales, it's about bringing the youth back to God. And that's exciting. That's what it is about.
|Only about half-way packed up in this picture...|
Maybe I will be all by myself, and maybe I won't make many sales. But this is my first conference and my first experience as a vendor. I should embrace this rather than waste it.
So I'm packing up and keeping my happy face on. Despite some of the lingering disappointment, the happiness is back in my heart, and I'm going off to face the youth, offer them some handmade clay rosaries, and hopefully see the return of hope, excitement and love for their Faith return in their eyes.
(Watch the trailer and you will see why I get so inspired!)
**I may not be able to post a full story about my first vending experience, but I will try to post some pictures. Otherwise, follow me on my FB page, Roses for Mary.